awake or asleep

Where have you been? I miss you really bad. Remember when you were just alone hiding out because you were too shy to be seen by the popular peeps in school. Or. Sessions you spent in the library digging out articles about the geekiest thing of science that excited you. You were remarkably self sufficient and was not part of the cool group. Not at all. Where have you been? I looked in the mirror and I saw someone who was always anxious about almost everything. I definitely did not see you there in the reflection. Have you decided to leave me?

I was not convinced of many things. I was told many things when I was little. I was told how to be patient. Particularly for things that I wish I had. My parents had believed that to instill patience would avoid greed to nourish in the nascent me. I had wanted to have that elaborate crayon collection or the latest play station games just like the kid of our neighbors. They called it irresponsible for the parents did not instill or at least intend to instill what they were tiling in my character. Patience.

(Source: paulzedrich)